Sometimes, the unspoken are much powerful.
No doubt.

Desire for more. Greed is the basic human nature.
For the times i look, i seek for something which i don't know.
Maybe i know now.
Just maybe.

Determination.
Is that hard to buy or exchange for? I guess so.

Armin Van Buuren. A Dutch which composed such melodies which inspired me.
Right. Found out that a friend of mine has been in AUS for two years straight and i have no idea about it til now. She changed , attitude remains.

Am i changing for the better cause or?
i need to take a deep breath and think.



Don't ever leave me in the rain.

Labels: Cappuccino, MORE

Happened yesterday. Oh well, got nothing much to say. Walked back to class after school hours. Sat in the class with no one around. Sounded empty but my mind ain't empty itself. Busy and rushing hours in there. Swirled and swirled. Getting deeper and deeper, for a second there , i almost thought i had drowned in there, never would ever came back to reality.

Linkin Park 's songs played on the way to the class. Breeze of the wind blew. Can't blame no one for it. It's my bad. In a phase which i kinda realized today. Gotta be independent on my own. Since when i rely that much on you? Is that a good thing? Question yet to be answer.

Understanding. Simon asked :" What made the relationship of you and Jin's?" Alright. A good question , simple yet difficult. Dilemma went off just when he asked. Guess the answer to it lies in me .Yet that question leads to answers which are beyond my expectation, who knows? No one knows.

MeiMei has sharply pointed out something which is a fact i had knew but i never did wanna face it. I'm immature somehow. Now, i just have to think more and face it.

Piercing through the illusion and back to the reality. Alright , i gotta accept the fact that i 'm not mature.

Hey,i miss your hands!

Labels: Pain indicates you are not dreaming.

What a nice title.
What a coincidence

Silence is way too scary than anything at the very moment. I even though it would kill me.
Silent, to know something is moving without me noticing it. Now i do and i have clarify it.

Still everything is not controlled by me. Whom is just an abnormal girl.

Valerie: " Life is fragile"



Live it hard.

Labels: precious sugar.

Brain felt stuffed with a world of things in it. Overloaded
Eventually jammed~

When you hugged me from behind. Man, i melted at that very moment.
The seafood pasta was good or i should say, PERFECT!

Thanks for everything, again baby.

Ya know it very well, don't ya?

Somewhere i belong is to be by your side.

Labels: sugar sugar.

Hyperactive.
What i want.
No one know it better than myself.
ME
Whom need sugar to be active.

Maybe it's the adrenaline thinggy on the action.

Fuck Emo.
How i hate that.
I really hate it SO MUCH.
Wish i can kill it fast enough when it strike again.

I will try. To be immune


Cause being emo is not what i want.

Labels: Cappuccino

Breeze can't chill things for now. The noise from the firecracker went off like thunder. What a chance for screaming FOC.
Let bygone be bygones.
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Words ,
meant to describe.

Breezy night , i can't concentrate. Wind blew through my hair. Stars are not there to see.
Millions of thoughts ran into my mind. I have lots to say.

Things happened and fade away but i will always keep it in mind.
Jealousy.
What a nice topic to talk.
Been wondering what have you guys talked for whole night.

I miss u ,
Every weekend , it made me emo as i can't see you for two Fucking day~

Again, i miss U.


It's not enough to say i miss you , baby.

Everything is within.

Rainy day that chills the skin
The two of us, not believing in this separation
The radio was playing inside the car

Saying goodbye is meaningless
If we're able to meet again someday
Don't you think it'll be a beautiful thing?

Are you able to hear my voice?
1 o'clock at night, on heart station
A dial that doesn't need tuning
A secret hertz
Are you receiving the frequencies of my heart?
Heart station of sinners
A secret only God knows
I miss you...

The more I think I need to forget
The more these thoughts remain

Even if we are apart
You are right here
In the middle of my heart

I thought I heard your voice
1 o'clock at night, on heart station
Two pulses, always beating somewhere
Are you receiving the frequencies of my heart?
Heart station of lovers
We're receiving a request again tonight
"I Love You"

Are you able to hear my voice?
1 o'clock at night, on heart station
A secret hertz that still connects us
Are you receiving the frequencies of my heart?
Heart station of sinners
A secret only God knows


Once again, infinity. I thought i saw everything but things i saw aint the things i need to see.
Bright or Dark , Which side i choose?
I choose whatever i want to. To see whatever i want to.


Again, it's not enough to say I miss you.

Labels: soaked in sugar.

Are you waking up 'cause you miss someone?
Hell yeah, i do.

Lots of Veronicas's song, derived from the song " Untouched". I should thank Justin for it, Nice song you introduced.

Got lots of emotions from those songs.
Chatted with Mao, nice to chat again. It's been a while.
Gotta learnt how to control the emotions of mine. Can't let it run loose again.
This is how it feels.

Thoughts run wild in my head, Gosh!
Being obsessive.

Past , Presence , Future.
Perfunctory to every period of time.
Seriously , i gotta be serious on life.
Live it hard , Enjoy it hard, Play it hard.

Catch me.

Labels: i m SO in sugar right now

Things i see ain't things you saw.

Listening to The Calling - Our lives.
Okay, Our lives, we get to decide for it .

Bla~ i get this multi mixed emotions.
X Damn it!

Make the best out of our lives.
I'm trying, don't push me.


Conclusion: i'm Emo.
Simon told me "Emo" is like for years, Sorry to tell you that your conclusion is wrong. "Emo" comes in without any sign and it fades away without any sign too.
My theory , correct me if i'm wrong.

I need "Sun"
Seriously.
It has been cloudy and windy these few days.

I like being close with you. I do.
Why?
Tell me.

Labels: sweetness ROX

When you smile , everything calm down .
Promise me that.

Gosh, I misses you alot.
I'm.


You told me : Baby , you're so in Love.

Labels: sweetness ROX

Looking at the clock which doesnt move anymore.
How i wish the time can freeze, My mom said : we will all stay young .
For me , i wish i can hold on it as long as possible.

Bla,
Everything's perfect , everything's in the right place.

Definitely , you're the mess i chose because i cant resist from not coming close to you , dont even mention closure between you and me, Devil inside me indeed, playing with my mind , making me miss you even more. From what i see, maybe a totally different point of view.

Well, i aint normal some times.


Simply you in my mind.

Labels: sweetness ROX

O2/O6
Bla~ Memories.
Once again , went out with my friends and Chandler.
Had a great time , definitely.

Everything just fall in the right place when i saw you. Walking from the lobby of the Bolling alley toward you, i realized i couldn't take my eyesight away from you.

Gosh, went for breakfast , although i took it at home but hey , there's no harm to drink right?
Boys , hmm not a good word , i should put them in the Guys category. They are cute. Definitely when they are your close friends.

Went and bought the ticket for movie. Alright , we picked the " my wife is gambling". Hmm, it is like 1 hour and 30 minutes on the clock FREE before the movie even started. So we went for coffee bean which was my idea. Chandler ordered double expresso for him and a caramel for me . Okay , next time i won't go for coffee bean anymore. Was a heartache when i saw you had a sip of the double expresso , i wanted to drink your double expresso in one gulp and leaving you with my caramel which i did in the end. For that moment , i was relieved when you drank the caramel.
Thanks for the treat , hmm , maybe i was little weird there when you wanna treat me for a drink.

When it was time for movie , all of the guys and i went for washroom , okay , then we just stand outside and waited. Timothy asked Kenneth which hall was it then we just realized that we were at the wrong hall waiting for the wrong movie . OH gosh! i almost tripped from the staircases but i didn't because Chandler was beside me holding my hand tightly. Baby , now i do have faith in you. And i won't be worrying much from the day onwards.

Okay , hall 3 was warm and it is like being isolated. You gave a kiss on my forehead , i almost melted from it. Almost fall asleep during the movie so i have to say that the movie was just so-so.
Conclusion: It's been a long time since i watched my last movie, when was it again? Hmm. it is like 4 years ago. Long huh?

After the movie , we went down and sat at the fast food area. Had some interesting talk, Okay i admit here , i was kinda harsh when it comes to forcing on others to tell me who was the girl he aimed for. Bla~ totally mean no harm dude. Just the naughty side of me . =P

Elvis and Kenneth left , following with Timothy and Cephas. Actually i wanna treat him for a drink at the cafe as a sign of apologize but he insisted to go home. Oh well, next time then.

Left me and Chandler walked to the cafe. Sat and had a nice talk. Hope nothing hurts. I got to know you more , baby.

Mom lectured me for not telling her a actual timing. Bla , my fault there , so i just let her lecture. Went for grocery shopping for tomatoes and lady fingers. My mom was going to cook asam curry fish. Which i 'm not in the mood for. I ended up with a pair of heels and a tube of Mr potato. That s SO gonna be in your tummy next week.

Went home and my feet was sore. High heels aint rookie stuff especially when you wore them for hours.

You said that you looked at Timothy and you saw the last time you. Maybe you were but you're not now. Are you?
I learnt something ,the word past means memories but the word now means future.
Faith and Fate , somehow they sounded the same. But they are totally different. Fate , we hold it. Faith we build it. Let's see how thing goes around then.
Buddies , i enjoyed the day. Thanks for it and Ung, when are you shy when it comes to me? Don't be , next time i see you , i would like to have a private talk with you.



If i could be your girl.

Labels: sweetness ROX

You don't know my color.

Just give me some space here : @!!@$@#%#$^$%&%^ *^&

Okay , now i feel much much better. Gosh , got pissed.

Bla~

Labels: sweetness ROX

& I 'm who she is. Okay,i admit i'm a girl with attitude,maybe a lil too straight forward,prone to accidents,tend to trip lots while walking.Which makes me a weird type of girl. BANGS!

Crave for more information?
Well, age is something which is off limit in her world. Enjoying life, so who cares bout' how long have you lived on Earth? Definitely a girl with short hair and it is a miracle that i would be having long hair. I'm those edgy kinda girl yet so hyperactive. Sometimes, she is just out of control. I have some serious yet funny thinking going on in my lil' mind. Would you like to join me in my lil mind? If so, just sit back and enjoy. Before ,she leaves her information here.One thing fo'sho,she is insanely in ♥ with JJ aka Akshon.

To be continue.