Overview
I'm Her , She's Me.
Unpredictable.
I'm Karlyn
Sunday, January 27, 2008
as my title mean , i'm 18 now, officially.18 means i have grown up , an adult, more responsibility.
Went out for a celebration with my friends, no cakes. Suddenly i miss cakes. have pizza for dinner, not much, *slim down* Everything has changes without me noticing it. Shocked to know what had changed in my former school.
The day before
Happy to receive wishes from Mao and Qin, Well, its been a long time that we have chatted, so kinda miss them actually. Phone got flooded , msn got flooded, friendster got flooded. Seem to me 18 Birthday is kinda important? Millions thanks to randompasserby, accompany me til 12 am.!~ And i thought no one will wish me a happy birthday.
Mom 's back at home again. i miss her, that means i'm a MAMA's girl . Today , i'm just over happy with it. Finally i'm alive again.
Finally , the last birthday wish to myself. Happy 18 Birthday to myself.
Labels: 18th, Calli.n out for moti.v.ation
Saturday, January 26, 2008
What a special day is today.Try to act like i'm happy, but actually i'm not okay. Someone told me i have grown mature in the way i talked and the way i think. Guess he's right about that. Sad isn't it if you are celebrating your 18 th alone. i need some mentally present , i don't want physical present. That's not what i wished for. In school, got a surprise from Mei Na and Pik Cheng, they gave a nice bag for me as present. Love it very much, in my 18 years of birthday, first time i receive a present, i will cherish it forever.
Inspiration.
guess i'm lack of it, come to think of it, when you have no inspiration , you just cant do anything. i need something or someone to inspire me , to have a motivation. WHO or WHAT will that be?
18th birthday coming in 57 minutes, time to grow up and mature .
Please grand me motivation!
[scream]
Labels: 18th, Calli.n out for moti.v.ation, captured
Friday, January 25, 2008
I'm addicted to piano.Thursday, school til 1 pm , attended to a grand funeral, 1 k student line up outside of the compound . Saluted , and silence for 3 minutes as Dato, Lee passed away. My buddy's grandfather. Hope he 's okay .
Back to my day , colourful, painted it with lots of colour such as i studied for my maths exam , and i start to fall in love with maths . Life 's really unpredictable, it won't follow what you have planned, guess you have to enjoy your life every moment as for you don't know what 's waiting for you in the next second . i'm trying my best to love add maths , which is now possible for this maths idiot . Looking for Bleach - diamonddust rebellion. any torrents or links out there?
Random ness .
Tomorrow is Kennith 's birthday , which i'm having a problem here. what should i give him as a present? Any comments for that Question? i need some answer urgently.
after his birthday , it's gonna be mine . My mom is away til the day of my birthday , which i'm definitely sad about that.
LAST : i wish for a motivation
[scream]
Labels: Calli.n out for moti.v.ation, captured, lost
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Everytime, people always start a conversation with horoscope, it's really a good way to start a conversation even you don't even know the person you're talking to. Horoscope had stay in this universe for too long, from Greece to all over the nation wide .But, don't get too obsess with it , it's just a guide line for those people whom are lost without any direct in their lifes. I admit , i'm kinda into this stuff, maybe i'm not confident enough in my current stage, that's why i have to rely on Horoscope.
I'm stucked with a pile of homeworks which i haven't done any of them yet. Teachers are screaming at my ears , yelling at me. That's just one of my stupid imagination . Lazy life, i wish i can have some motivation to make myself work hard and work even more. Can any proS here teach me some technique? Guess it need a hell lot of self control , from my opinion , that's it.
And Self Control is what m i lack of pretty much . Can't even find a single trace of self control now , (except for exam time ) Oh my gosh , i have to look for a hard bricked wall now .
p.s : for those who is interested in horoscope, and you can read chinese, i have a web to intro . It's in the Sitez
Labels: Calli.n out for moti.v.ation, captured
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
i got a cut few days ago, oh well, the wound 's still there, reminding me how careless i'm.same theory applies in the name of LOVE, which i 'm clueless about it , anyone wanna teach me on that topic? Guess there's no pro in here either. Well, been a while i haven't post anything yet, busy busy busy , i don't know what i'm so busy about, i'm insane , INSANITY. keep on working working working, pile after another pile of homework. School doesn't seem to suck so badly, eventually you will find peace in a busy enviroment. That is , if you're a PRO. That is me . Enjoy my class til someone transfered again into my class making my class full as it suppose to be , 27 pupils.
And , i don't like him cause of his friend, sounds weird, but they done something that is unforgivable.
So , frankly, I don't like YOU.
Guess a lot of nonsense here, well, i'm insane , ain't i? Buying freedom at any price here, urgently!
Anyone selling?
Friday, January 11, 2008
I have no idea what am i gonna write about now , still i will go on just typing on it.Listen to Craig David's Walking away, truly, Craig 's songs have been one of my favourite. Lyrics from that song, perfectly replace what i wanna write out. Everything's summarize within few little lines. Wish to escape from reality , just to be in my own Innisfree . As what the Irish poet once wrote " i will rise and go now , and go to Innisfree" this is where he and me share the same thoughts even though we are century apart, different country. To people who is now sharing the same feelings as me , it's normal, just that we need some time for ourselves, which is seeking for peace in such a busy enviroment. Which they said : "Time is the best cure""I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realise
some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights i'm sorry to say lady
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby
don't listen to the games they play
girl I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights I'm sorry to say lady
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realise
some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights i'm sorry to say lady
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby
don't listen to the games they play
girl I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights I'm sorry to say lady
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
Labels: captured
Saturday, January 5, 2008
i have done nothing today.Never went for my friend's birthday celebration , since Susana 's not going. Online for whole day and msn has blew my head off. Been trying so hard to fix it , for both the msn messenger and the internet connection. Eventually i gave up , and went for teevee , been jumping from one channel to another, until i saw a movie title"Last Holiday". i'm not a teevee person, i'm more to a online person, so maybe this movie 's kinda new to me , the movie talks about a woman , she has been stressing her life for money, and one day , she went for medical check up, found out she has only three weeks of life, and she was so sad that God has made fun of her life. after that she accepted the reality , and started to enjoy her life. At this point , i admired her , even though it's just a movie, she can live freely, that's what my blog's are all about, - FREEDOM. Well, it's just a coincidence .
Define Life, anyone? well, no one really has a specific answer for it, including me . For me , i regret that i waste the pass 17 years of my life, and now i just started to realize the importance of life, well, like it's said: it 's never too late . I'm now painting my life with lots of colours, making it colourful as ever, enjoying it. Life , we can only live for once, maybe some people lived for twice , depends on the situation. I turned on the radio , heard something that really wakes me up , ever heard of saying goodbye to 2007 , maybe most people never thought of that , but it's kinda true, have you guys say goodbye to year 2007? In your life, 2007 is a memory for us now, because it's past tense now , and it would never turned up again in our life, it's more like a history , and we had experienced a historical moment without noticing it . i have made up my mind - GOOD BYE 2007
My window media player has been playing Hikki's song ,title -keep tryin' for whole day. It's in Japanese, but i understand the lyrics, an encouraging song, i would never get tired of that song. Well, guess i should keep trying on my lousy subjects that's - maths and add maths. And pray to God (although i'm free-thinker) i can pass my SPM with A1 . * i'm too greedy*
stay tune for more action*
Labels: with or without y.o.u
sometimes, i just need to stress myself up, it's normal.
Second day of school , feels good to be back in the school again, others would probably disagreed with me. Well, it's been two months holiday with me doing nothing with those times, been counting my fingers and toes over and over again, but the time ain't cooperate with me , it just taking it's sweet time.When i need it, it's like flies past me without saying anything. Now, i need plenty of time, it just won't stop at a point to let me have some break . 362 days to another year, guess i have to use my time wisely til then.Oh well, back to my life again, arrived school on time as usual, have some rubbish talking assembly, and went for class. Oh guess what? Ms Celine, first lesson, oh my, i loss my interest in Physics after seeing her. Follow with my Chemistry teacher , which i don't know much about her, heard that she 's been imported and made in India, she has some serious hard accents, i have to focus on her mouth when she lecture in order to understand what she has to say, it's kinda mind-alert in the class, after her class, i felt so relax, maybe i 'm too focus on her mouth , and it's kinda weird. Seriously , YPL 's class, where he 's the one who's in charge teaching us maths and add maths, oh my, i have to say sorry to him when the class started, for i'm a lousy student when it comes to counting and calculate amounts . Next, i haven't eaten my lunch in school for like TWO WHOLE DAYS, what is up with the timetable that been arranged by Richard, change it back please, WE (shorties) have some trouble getting our food, school ends peacefully, yet i have to bring back whole stack of books, which are damn thick , oh well, if i want good results, then i have to sacrificed my time and mind then . Nothing comes free in this materialistic world. There 's a gain , there's a loss. Back at home, slept through whole entire afternoon, woke up, my mom has arrived home, at 6 my parents gone out for dinner, left us at home alone. Well, i'm used to it, it's not like the first time though. In my room, stare at my ceiling as usual, thinking about my future, what holds my future.Lessons started yesterday, and i have some homework in my bag which i haven't start doing yet. Guess i have to change my attitude when it comes to studies, to be more focus and alert , and more hardworking, which hardworking seem a bit impossible for me . School , i starting to think that school is a fun place, i should have explored more when i still have the time, now it's too late . Hope i won't just waste my time in Uni, that will sucks big time, i will try to remembered more what had happened to my life , since i have short term memory lost, so it's kinda short for my post.
More by tomorrow
because i'm going out for my friend's birthday celebration, which i hope it's fun.
l8trs
Labels: deep river